I know, I know, you're probably thinking "WTF, woman, haven't you had enough big changes for a while?" And the answer is HELLS YES. But there was one big piece of the puzzle missing, and I took a big step to fix it yesterday.
My job. I like my job, but I hate hate HATE that it keeps me away from my family for such long hours of the day. We leave the house at 7am, drop our kids off at 7:30am, and pick them up TEN hours later. We rush home, shove food in the boys, fight about dragging them into bed, read a quick story, and then goodnight. There is no time for anything else. It royally sucks.
Griffin had a difficult year in school this past year. I don't really want to get into it all right now, but suffice it to say that my head and my heart have been telling me for a LONG time that my boy needs more. More of his Mama, more time in his own home, in his own space. More time to sleep in the morning, and decompress at the end of the day. More snuggles, more undivided attention, more love. Just more.
And so yesterday, I told my employer just that. I need to be HERE, in my home, for my family, more. My job is great, my benefits are great, but they are not my primary responsibility - my kids, my husband, my family is.
Let the chips fall where they may, let the universe do it's thing, but I did what I had to do, and boy does it feel good. Feels right.
Peace, mes amis!
xoxox
Good for you! It's so important to listen to that little mama voice inside that speaks to you about your family. Good luck on your journey toward this ever important goal. We are a one income family, and while it is often tough and we have to go without sometimes, I never regret being able to stay home with my children.
ReplyDeleteWhile I don't know if we'll ever be soley a one income family, my goal is to get to a place where I can (at the very least) be home for my kids until I put them on the bus, and there for them when they get off the bus in the afternoon, and have the freedom to go volunteer in their classrooms once and a while without causing major strife at work. (Making soap full time is the 3 year goal!)
ReplyDeleteWow! Good for you. Having dreams and goals keeps us feeling alive and like we are working towards something meaningful. Congrats and I hope you enjoy a few weeks off before going on a new job hunt. K
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