source), and I had one of those OMG! moments. Especially because yesterday I kind of exploded my life a little bit, and took the first step to making a big change for my family.
I know, I know, you're probably thinking "WTF, woman, haven't you had enough big changes for a while?" And the answer is HELLS YES. But there was one big piece of the puzzle missing, and I took a big step to fix it yesterday.
My job. I like my job, but I hate hate HATE that it keeps me away from my family for such long hours of the day. We leave the house at 7am, drop our kids off at 7:30am, and pick them up TEN hours later. We rush home, shove food in the boys, fight about dragging them into bed, read a quick story, and then goodnight. There is no time for anything else. It royally sucks.
Griffin had a difficult year in school this past year. I don't really want to get into it all right now, but suffice it to say that my head and my heart have been telling me for a LONG time that my boy needs more. More of his Mama, more time in his own home, in his own space. More time to sleep in the morning, and decompress at the end of the day. More snuggles, more undivided attention, more love. Just more.
And so yesterday, I told my employer just that. I need to be HERE, in my home, for my family, more. My job is great, my benefits are great, but they are not my primary responsibility - my kids, my husband, my family is.
Let the chips fall where they may, let the universe do it's thing, but I did what I had to do, and boy does it feel good. Feels right.
Peace, mes amis!